I guess I deserved that

I was feeling ambitious so I emailed back the guy who told me my interview was canceled because the position was filled internally. I explained that I had noticed the job posting was still on the site and that my application status was still listed as “in process” so I expressed my interest in continuing with an interview if the position was indeed available. I just checked the status again. Instead of being “closed” like a position at another company was, it simply read “not selected.” Ouch.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

That’s how I feel right now – except the scream is more of a muted, muffled scream rather than a loud, barbaric one. I’m so frustrated about how stagnant everything is. I’m just waiting for something to happen and I’m running out of patience. I feel incredibly isolated and alone and want to curl up into a ball and just go to sleep forever. But I probably wouldn’t be able to fall asleep. HAHAHAH!