That’s how I feel right now – except the scream is more of a muted, muffled scream rather than a loud, barbaric one. I’m so frustrated about how stagnant everything is. I’m just waiting for something to happen and I’m running out of patience. I feel incredibly isolated and alone and want to curl up into a ball and just go to sleep forever. But I probably wouldn’t be able to fall asleep. HAHAHAH!
The fact that I used to be a big Barenaked Ladies fan, or the fact that this song popped up in iTunes the other day and seriously made me wanna die? I’ve always liked this song, but I guess I never paid much attention to the lyrics until now. And seriously, this pretty much sums up how things went for me, so I present to you my definitive Break up Song 2010, even though pretty much all songs are about break ups.
Words & Music by Steven Page
The bravest thing I’ve ever done
Was to run away and hide
But not this time, not this time
And the weakest thing I’ve ever done
Was to stay right by your side
Just like this time, and every time
I couldn’t tell you I was happy when you were gone
So I lied and said that I missed you when we were apart.
I couldn’t tell you, so I had to lead you on
But I didn’t mean to break your heart.
And if I always seem distracted
Like my mind is somewhere else,
That’s because it’s true
Yes it’s true
it’s this stupid pride that makes me feel
Like I have to follow through
Even half-assedly, loving you
Why must I always speak in terms of cowardice?
When I guess I should have just come out and told you right from the start
Why must I always tell you what I want is this?
I guess cause I wouldn’t want to break your heart
And you said;
“What’d you think that I was gonna do,
Curl up and die just because of you?
I’m not that weak, you know
What’d you think that I was gonna do,
Try to make you love me as much as I love you?
how could you be so low?
You arrogant man,
What do you think that I am?
My heart will be fine
Just stop wasting my time”
And now I’m over you, I’ll be ok
And that i’ve got what I want
And that’s rid of you
Bye
And it’s not cause I’ll be missing you
That makes me fall apart
it’s just that I didn’t mean to break
No, I didn’t mean to break
No, I didn’t mean to break
Your heart
Your heart
I was all excited to open this post with a song lyric. Belle & Sebastian’s “Act of the Apostles II,” which I thought contained the lyric “I’m a genius / a prodigy / My sad sighs / are up for a prize.” Prize-winning Sad Sighs?? Yes, please.
Turns out “my sad sighs” is actually “at maths and science”. Stupid Scottish accent. So that is not relevant at all.
ANYWAY.
I’m just here to report on a small Sad Sigh. I’ve had a nosering for, like, 5 years now. See:
So I’m used to it, right? Except that apparently the other night I rolled over violently on that side of my face OR SOMETHING because now I have a cut inside my nostril and a bruise surrounding the cut from the nose ring.
Yes, that’s right, I injured myself in my sleep with my own nose ring. My friends know that I’m very prone to falling down randomly, dropping glasses, and generally being awkward, but apparently I’m also capable of hurting myself when I’m dead asleep.
This afternoon, I come to share the news that honorary Sad Sigh writer Morrissey collapsed and was taken to the hospital, causes unknown.
Speculation abounds! What could have toppled the former Smith’s lead singer, responsible for lyrics such as “I’ve a shyness that is criminally vulgar” and “life is a pigsty” and “life has killed me”?
Grace: Do you think sorrow brought him down?
Kristin: I think he collapsed under the weight of his own tears.
That’s right! We know what made Morrissey collapse! And let this be a lesson to you all as well. Sadness has its price! IT HAS ITS PRICE.
